Fire moment

I had a small fire moment.  Well, it wasn’t fire, exactly.  Maybe more like sparks.  But let me tell ya, it was kinda frightening.  Kinda like when you are sitting on the beach around a campfire and all of a sudden one of the logs pops and sends sparks all over and everyone jumps. Like that.

I had the rudest bank person on the phone this morning.  They were telling me that I needed to make a payment on my card.  Yes thank you.  I already sent in my payment.  However, my polite and charming personality did not register with this lady.  She was the most rude and evil person I have ever talked with on the phone, and I have talked to some rude people.  The conversation is as follows.  Verbatim.

her: “Miss Barton, you have to make a payment on your Visa.”

me:  “Mrs. Barton, and I have already sent in a payment.”

her:  “Well then, where is it?”

me:  “Probably in the mail.”

her:  “You really need to be on top of these things, you should have sent it in two weeks ago.”

me:  “I don’t see how that can be.  I have my statement right here and it says that the payment isn’t due til the 23rd, which is tomorrow.”

her:  “We need your payment now.  Do you have a debit account we can withdraw from?  I need you to give me that information now.”

(This is where I kinda lost it.  I’m not really sure why.)

me:  “You know what, you do not need my debit account information.  I just told you there is a payment in the mail, you should be receiving it today or tomorrow.  I do not appreciate you attacking me or telling me that I “have” to do something or another.  I do not “have” to do anything.  I am a human being who is struggling like thousands of other human beings and I would really love it if you treated me and probably everyone else you call like we are real people, not pieces of crap.  Do not call me again.  Thank you.”

At this point I hung up on the lady.  I am not really sure what came over me.  I was just so tired of these people calling me and harassing me about money that I do not have.  Interesting though that I became a little frightened at this ability that I am developing.

My elements

I just realized as I reviewed my previous post that I never told anyone what my strong elements are.

Water and Wind.

Water is my main element.  I usually just “go with the flow”.  My mother feels this is a bad thing, but I disagree.  My ability to move along with everyone else, allows me to get along with most everyone else.  And while I cannot control where this river flows, I enjoy the scenery and the ride.  It is true.  Sometimes I am the gentle stream, and at times, I am the roaring rapids.  But that is the beauty of it.

As a part wind, I believe in things I cannot see.  I am dreamer.  Maybe a little too much and that is where the earth needs to kick in.  I think I spend a little too much time with my head in the clouds.  But that is not necessarily a bad thing.  I am fairly open-minded and I can accept a lot of things that others view as foolish and childish.  Wind keeps me kind and understanding.

I do not have very much Earth in my personality.  I fight against routines, and lists, and schedules.  Like the wind, I enjoy spontaneity, not solid grounding.  I think I could use a little more stability in my life.

I have no Fire in my personality.  I do not have a super competitive edge, nor do I seek to rule absolute over everything.  When I do need power, I draw it from water, not fire.  However, I would like to be able to draw from fire when I need to.  If someone were in need of serious immediate help, I would like the ability to step up and take charge in a fierce and determined way. 

When perfectly balanced, the elements compliment each other.  I would like the same ability.  and I am going to work for that.

The Beginning

My name is not important. I am simply another human being among billions.  But I am on a quest.

For my entire life, the balance of the Four Elements has intrigued me.  The elements of course being FIRE, WATER, EARTH, and WIND.  When working together, these elements bring life to our planet, not too much or too little.  Balance.

I have realized recently that my own life needs to achieve this same balance.  I notice that I operate on only two of the four- Water and Wind.  The purpose of these writings is so that many years down the road, when I have reached my goal of balance, I can look back and remember the journey, the ups and downs, and successes and failures.

I must set a path before my feet and not stop until I have reached my goal.  After all, isn’t that what life is about?